listening…

My pot-plants are always the first to suffer when I’m busy. Nature doesn’t speak human. It speaks logic. It may not happen immediately but we will all bow to nature in the end. Water your plants. Feed your pets. love yourself.

Footprints…

Ive been home for a while, resting, and yesterday someone sent me a text saying “hey you’re on tv.”

In less than 15 seconds I had the television on and I was both excited to see the insert my band recently shot and upset that the producers had not given us pre notification of its airing.

To my slight disappointment it was not Zuko Collective on my Telefunken screen but “Glori” of LoveGlori talking about the journey. 

Now there’s something about the way Wanaya Visuals Company shot Sisters with Soul that makes it difficult to switch the telly off once you’ve given it even just a few seconds of your attention.
Its gripping story telling!(Helps when they stories are interesting too). As result I ended up watching, even though I own a copy of this particular episode.

I watched myself talk about LoveGlori, a movement that started because when Lerato sang to me for the first time, I never wanted her to stop (EVER)

I also saw/heard Lerato laugh for the first time in almost 7 months. I saw love in both our eyes. For music. For each other but most of all for God. 

It saddened me ever so slightly because i then thought of the last time Lerato and I spoke to each other.
There was so much anger and hurt between us (there still is) that I had begun to feel negatively towards both God and Music.

I felt I had become a sinner and a liar because on 2 occassions Lerato and I had sung as LoveGlori on days where we had failed at even the basics. “Good morning.” “How are you?” 

Ps: those were the wackest performances of my life.

We were fighting. More than fighting. A verbal turned physical war had manifested itself in my living room on the 27th march and like true humans neither of us would apologize.

I believe she felt left out and sidelined but after that night I felt violated.

Needless to say, due to that messy situation, there is no LoveGlori today but this note carries with it two messages.  

The first is an apology/explanation to everyone who watched that funny voiced girl named Nozuko today. Many of you have sent me messages, wishing LoveGlori well. Congratulating us on our progress. Asking for links to the music. 

I regret to inform you that LoveGlori disbanded. It was a conversation with big brother T from the V that made me realise the media is both our friend and our enemy for it is through media that you came to fall in love with LoveGlori (some of you only yesterday, months after her disbanding) but we were unable to use the same platform to announce the loss.

When Diliza Moabi (one of the producers of the documentary) called me about Sisters with Soul he was calling “Soulsta of SoulSociety”. A young 20year old he had met at House of Nsako in 2008. He was doing a show on soulful women in the industry and lucky for me id made enough noise to be recognised as “up and coming. ” 

“Im part of a duo now” was my response. I wanted to mobilize LoveGlori and its all I was interested in talking about. Diliza loved us so much he offered to shoot a music video too. My work was done.

Now if we were in America I think our break_up would have been more of a thing. I would not have have to come back here to find the words to explain.

We used to joke about the headlines that would introduce the dramatic retells of our adventures. Lol. There would have been no need for notes. Dr Phil would have fixed everything and the magazines would have had a field day with the story of reconciliation within the sisterhood… but they didn’t and so all we had were our two little statements on facebook. 

Mine: https://m.facebook.com/notes/zu-nomagungqu/for-love-for-music/117041491825862/?__user=100005600349111

And hers: https://m.facebook.com/story.php?story_fbid=10200573609035592&id=1019946447&__user=100005600349111

Breaking up was never part of the plan. Who plans to have a baby then terminates just as they are about to give birth?

The second message is THANK YOU! I would like to send my heart felt appreciation to everyone who has been walking and dancing with me. 

Blaq Pepper (2006)
Soul Society (2008)
LoveGlori (2010 -2013)

Every instrumentalist. Evey listener. Every wanna-be manager. Every venue owner/promoter. You grow me and the music God sends to you keeps me resilient. Makwande.

I am told LoveGlori is releasing an album soon. I would like you to know that my original work will not be part of this project.It is my belief that music is a conversation with God and once recorded, the material is a preservation of that moment. Once it is released it should be a mobilizer. 

At the moment,I am working on a studio album with my new band (Zuko Collective) This is part of the next chapter of my book and is a collaborative project of works composed by the Collective as a band as well as contributions from individuals within the Collective such as myself, Dylan Thomas Silk and Lwazilubanzi Mthembu.

Music is so many things to me. A sickness. A calling. A blessing. A spirit i channel. You will not stop hearing from me. Some stories you may have heard before, others we will write together. 

Ato once told me that our songs are like pages torn out of our personal journals. With LoveGlori being her first born I respect her desire to honour the beginning of her journey with this offering from her journal and she does so with my blessing. 

My inner stalker knows no truth beyond the lyrics to call me and when you hear monday kisses please know that that is my favourite LoveGlori song EVER!

Let us continue to tell our truths. Mine is music and no matter my flaws, no matter the challenges I face. This, my musical truth, remains my constant.God bless you all.

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White flag

Erect
index
fingers
penetrate
personal
spaces
forcing,
thrusting,
angry.
My
vulnerability
violated by
vicious
verbal
vengeance.

I come in peace…

For you and for me…

Micheal Jackson sang:

“There’s a place in your heart
And I know that it is love
And this place could be much
Brighter than tomorrow…

…Be God’s glow.
We could fly so high
Let our spirits never die
In my heart I feel
You are all my brothers
Create a world with no fear
Together we’ll cry happy tears
See the nations turn
Their swords into plowshares
We could really get there
If you cared enough for the living
Make a little space to make a better place.”

I don’t think we took Micheal or that song seriously enough. He gave us some of the best dance music ever but the message behind that heal the world song man… I think its most relevant to me right now. There is SO MUCH violence in the world. In our time, there are people making bombs out of pressure cookers. Men beating grannies. “Friends” beating on each other and as though war and AIDS were not enough, there are people killing strangers for their material good. For meer possessions.

My friend was murdered in a hijacking this past weekend. When I heard I felt like finding a mountain where everyone who inhabits the earth would hear me screaming at the top of my husky ability. “Help!!! Someone help me make it right!!!”

I thought of so much. There I was, crying on my bedroom floor. In pain from the inside out… I hadn’t spoken to my friend in such a long time. But there was something else behind the pain. My pain was for these people who are so lost, whose lives are so far gone that not only are they stealing from innocent hardworking men (UNlike themselves. Better than them) they are also taking lives??? What evil spirits are these that nurture the rotting of souls in our communities??? How broken is this situation though. My pain is for my son and his children.

Why is the world this way? When did we start losing humanity? Is it really because people don’t have jobs? I’m scared of the things happening around me. As a mother. As a sister. As a woman. Im in pain. I feel like I should be doing something. Like there is a key/a chain/pattern, SOMETHING! Something we’re missing that could tell us what we can do to heal the world. These acts of violence. These brutal killings. Isn’t there something that can be done???

I really feel sick and desperate right now. Had to get it off my chest. We can’t live in bubbles. I want to make it right. I feel responsible. Its so overwhelming though…

Beyonce sings:
“I will leave my mark so everyone will know. I was here. I want to say I lived each day, until I died and know that I meant something in, somebody’s life
The hearts I have touched, will be the proof that I leave. That I made a difference, and this world will see
I was here.”

I think the most powerful ways of ridding the world of darkness is making sure you’re a raging fire/light where you are. A positive force of love and goodness.  Im not saying open a homeless shelter but there’s actually so much that seems small or meaningless that makes yhe world of a difference. Im figuring out how to help you do it.

As an artist I think I’m fortunate enough to have a platform. A voice. I want to use that voice. I want to be your voice too. If you allow me we will do amazing things you and I. For generations to come. For love and peace. For you and for me.